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finding me–9/2009

Real life

Today

Real life
A series of questions
What should we do, how much, WHEN? AHHGHGHHH
IN our world where life is just a flow, we shouldn’t have to address these questions, responsibility weaves through
mold responsibilities to meet flow, then you’ve achieved Enlightenment
A feast
The flow is what’s closest to your heart
what means a lot to you
MUSIC
FEELS GOOD
MUSIC 
FEELS GOOD
FOOD
FEELS GOOD
biologically, I need food.
everything else is meaningless, not important
We focus on HOW to be in the flow, but we don’t just be in the Flow.
The flow
Go with the flow
cliche
That’s so cliche!
What’s the point of being so accusatory, labeling, next thing, next thing
Schedules, life scheduled
life centered around schedule, what do I have to do at 5:30?
When the fuck is 5:30?
Why the fuck do I have to be anywhere anytime, 530 530 FUCK 530 FUCK 530 FUCK 530 530530530530530503030305305000500000000000003330303030303035050503053053053053050350350305305035030530503053053050350350
The fucking moment
standing outside the library
couldn’t go in, I’d make a fool out of myself
a foool
but shit, I had a moment
I was waiting….waiting waiting waiting waiting
FOR WHAT?
all of a sudden, my life became completely utterly TOTALLY involved in the moment of waiting WAITING for friends to emerge from Sternfuck libary
What the fuck was I waiting for?
That was my life
nothing else was important
SO I REALIZED
why cant I fucking LIVE THIS LIVING
why do I have to LIVE THIS WAITING
life doesn’t have to be on a constant schedule, with stops and times TIME DOESNT FUCKING EXIST
life is a fucking cliche,a fucking flow
a cycle
walking around to picnic point to memorial union POINT, UNION POINT, dhjksadhashjd in a cycle
COLTRANE
life is always in motion, can’t let schedule preoccupy us, can’t let schedule, can’t let agenda, can’t let WHAT WE HAVE TO DO undermine WHAT WE’RE DOING
cliche is true
it’s a cliche for a reason
Catch yourself
Catch yourself, your self-conscious self
I can’t be this way, I have to be this way, Why can’t you be this way
Phil Musen, Phil Musen, Phil Musen
John Coltrane, Bob Dylan, Uhhhhhhhhh say it

you cant let your schedule get in the way of who you are, the flow, who you are, the flow, who you are is the flow
energy is what derives entire personality, business is who you are, what you’re doing

Sacred flow
sacred flow
no no no, class at 8, party at 9….NO NON ONO
the flow.
indescribable, natural flow
a cycle
from the union
to picnic point
indescribable, natural flow
cliche, circle cliche circle cliche cirlce cliche circle appreciate how my fingers are dancing around the keys in circles cliches circles cliches circlesclchresljcirclescirlwiclcclicjeshclieiRHYTHM
MUSICrhythm, pulse, natural pulse
heartbeat BADUM MOTHAFUCKA
so natural, music so natural, pulse, heartbeat DADUMDADUMDADUMDADUM
circles cliches rhthm pulse beat DADUMDAUDAUMDAUDMAUDAMDUDM
thinking in cliches
cliche is who I am
I am a cliche
I am a cliche 
I am a cliche
I am a cliche 
I am a cliche
acid………………………….
changed my life

Sarah Palin 2012

 

An old dream

I run towards the portal,

its perimeter glowing white,

dive head first and sink

into a landscape of simple

shapes and empty space,

finding shelter in fresh water,

where a freckled swimmer

greets me with a slippery kiss.